Break me, watch me fall.

If you were wondering...yes this is a true story and yes....I an going through this right now..

You break my heart everytime I try to talk to you. I still can't find it in me to let you go. You know that your hurting me but you won't let me break free just for your own pleasure and like an idiot Im still in love with you. You told your new girlfriend that we were over but you say you still love me.... How can you want to be with me if you say so many hurtful things? At the beginning...there was only so much longer I could live with this. Somehow I found a way to wake up every morning blank minded as I try to keep you out of it. I dont want to stay like this... If she's the one you love than why won't you let me go?

The thoughts come crashing down on me. I picture you with her....holding her tight like you did with me.. My heart races as i try to catch my breath... I fall down to my knees and begin to sob in pain.. Is this really what you want? I put my face down to the floor to keep my fever down but the images just won't go away. I begin to get sick everywhere until I lose all the color in my face. All you can see are the tears ( you know the ones you said you hated) Is this really what you want? I begin to gasp for air as my lungs close up on me. It feels as if everything is caving in. I hold my breath hoping to ease the pain but all I can feel is my heart slowing. I drift away. Is this really what you want?